Pius's darkest secrets

Moving out..

2007-10-01T08:57:00.000+08:00

Once i am done with serving the army, i will be moving to the states to further my studies for forensic sciences. Today i just registered myself with the school. I do hope army finishes fast so that i can go for my studies quickly. Most likely i will be going to a uni in the LA cos my dad's got relatives down there to provide me with accomodation. This time once i am gone it will be for long who knows i might 1 to stay there for good. Actually i knew i would have to go for overseas studies sooner or later when i finished my O' levels. Just that now everything is more or less settled.

Hmmm...

2007-09-22T14:37:00.000+08:00

I have a strong urge to go out today but duno who to ask out. Seems like i have drifted away frm all my frens when i am in the army. But think it is probably my fault i have been isolating myself frm every1 ever since i got posted into armour infantry. My past few weekends have been rather incomplete. My weekends keeps gettin burned and my plans being thrown off. Feels like going out alone for a walk in the street. Though i seem to have friends all around i still feel empty.

New Environment

2007-06-24T22:36:00.000+08:00

I will be booking in tomorrow to a new camp known as the sungei gedong camp. It is somewhere at lim chu kang. Damn far from my house think i will take ages to travel back home. Heard stories abt being in there for my vocation as a armour infantry. Some said i will be running behind the freaking tank n carrying a freaking MG that weighs around 5-10kg. I sure hope this doesn't happen to me and i will be able to board the tank.

Com's DOWN

2007-06-20T20:02:00.000+08:00

Damn it my computer's down. Currently using my sis's notebook to blog. This came to me after i posted the previous entry "Love without pride is cheapening, Having pride without love is worse Off than cheap". It looks like i am gettin kind of desperate without a gf for some reason. Hope this can go away soon.

Out as a Private

2007-06-18T18:16:00.000+08:00

Finally out of the place once again and will not be going into pulau tekong in the near future i hope. Intially i detest the idea of being a commander but in the end i don't know what make me change my mind and i put YES in my form. Now i sort of regretted it i guess. Hope future training will not be that tough. Haha did not blog for ages lol. Once i get home i really treasure the time at home hence i try to spend more quality time with my family members and minimise my time using the computer. It is only now that i am on my block leave i start to use the computer more often. Went out with some of JC frens and secondary sch frens during the days out. I finally went to register for driving lessons lol. Feeling quite emo also everytime i am out. I tend to feel upset the moment i thought about my free time going to end soon. In camp Quan ming my section mate suddenly told me don't you feel horrible when you see the others calling their girlfriend and going out with them the moment they book out. I definitely felt the same. People like us only stay at home and can be a good boy. Sometimes i just blame myself for being too cowardly and do not have the courage to tell the girl i like that i really like you or i could just ask her out. Sighs....... enough of the sighing i will post some pictures of my outings.

After 2 wks confinement

2007-04-29T21:22:00.000+08:00

Finally out frm the living hell of pulau tekong still got another 7 more weeks to go over there. Only when i was there then i start to appreciate the things that i have b4 i went in. I love my dad and mum n bro n sis 4ever n this will not change. Start to feel emo.... I appreciated the rights to do what i can at home and the freedom at home and going out with friends. That day when i came out i was having a fever and a sore throat n a cough. It's the tekong flu guess i couldn't adapt to the weather there. I swear on the day when i book in i m going to gif my family members a big hug. Though it will be 4 days before i come out again. Yesterday met up wif peng rox, chin leng, wei shun, alvin , yuk lum, stella and joshua. It was to celebrate joshua's birthday. Went there to have lunch at fish n co's. Went there even though i wasn't feeling well popped a pill b4 i went then after tat dine wif my family at scotts road. Went to chalet oraganise my geraldine n her stead most of my jc friends were there. Didn't really interact with them guess probably i wasn't tat close wif them or mebbe bcos i was sick still i treasure my friendship with them. When i go in the tekaning is going to get worse. haiz.... hope i still can take it and dun make any mistakes will not kena scolded or confinement or guard duty during weekend.

Last day of my slacker life..

2007-04-13T00:55:00.000+08:00

I will be reporting to tekong soon in the noon.. feeling quite nervous now... shall not talk about it anymore. On wed night went clubbing wif yang, vince, yuk lum, stella, roxanne, chin leng, joshua and company. Thks every1 for celebrating my birthday for me. Really appreciated it. THks guys!! Posts some photo in here on my blog. Who says being single is lonely!! Wif frens like u all i nv will. THks for everything! Last thing b4 i go in, TAKE CARE ALL!!

Saving My blog PLAN

2007-04-10T22:47:00.000+08:00

haha haven blogged for some time liao.. On gd friday i went cycling wif my bro n sis n dad at ecp. Went quite late cos my bro came back home late. He was rollerblading and i was cycling then he asked me ferry him on my 1 person seat mountain bike..... No choice ferry him here and there so scared he fall down.. (PS: he duno how to cycle) Then on monday nth much to do went out in the noon get some basic necessities for army then today went to my grandma's place for dinner cos she says wan to see me b4 i go in but she cannot go on that day so went over to her place for dinner. Great excited abt tml meeting my frens to go to the clinic!! nv went there b4... Very excited to go there. I want to eat birthday CAKE!!! (haha sounds so random)

gr8 day today...

2007-04-02T23:25:00.000+08:00

ooo my dad finally got his new car. And gosh it's shiok.. but dun think i will get to sit in it often since i will be serving the country soon. Went to test out the car by travelling to JB haha for a dinner and shop for lotsa of dvds and got some daily necessities as usual since it's cheaper over there. Hope i get to sit in the car often. Tml i will be meeting vince n stella n yuk lum for a show. But up till now i got no idea wat to watch. Lol i come here brag abt my day pls forgive me. I just got nth to do at home.

Just another day..

2007-03-30T18:46:00.000+08:00

Finally went to register for the respective university. I just hope i can get in any1 of them though it is most unlikely... i guess..

New Blogskin

2007-03-22T19:25:00.000+08:00

My blog died for some time and i am back to save it. Finally managed to find a blogskin that i really like it. Cos i think this skin will be with me for some time since i am going to the army soon. On tues met up wif vince to catch a movie. Saw alot of people on the streets. And we did some catching up. We watched pursuit of happyness. Nice show very touching. I will try to keep my blog alive and i try to keep it more alive by adding some background music. Hope u all will like it.

running from reality..

2007-03-12T16:04:00.000+08:00

I have been running away from reality lately.. I haven't got the courage to register in uni i am scared to face it.. Give me strength!!! And my brother lost his phone n wallet. It was stolen haiz.. And to think the dog n dragon are suppose to enjoy gd luck in the piggy year. For me bad results and my brother lost his phone after we bought it a month ago...

new stuffs always cheers me up even it is for awhile

2007-03-09T10:30:00.000+08:00

Buying new stuff always makes me happy!! I bought a new mp3..weeee!! my old one was spoiled so i sent for repairs but they told me repairing it would cost the same as a new 1 so they decided to replace me 1 for free and a newer model haha.. But then i gave it to my brother since he doesn't have 1. Then i went to the IT fair yesterday and bought myself another 1..very nice! cheers! oh yea my dad is finally changing family car cos it's gonna be 5 yrs old once it reaches 5 the scrap's value gonna drop drastically. He is changing to a mitsubishi grandis. The new car damn shiok lar. Yea all the stuff is def going to cheer me up even if it's awhile... Though i try to put up a strong front whenever ppl ask me abt my results or abt others my mind is in a whirl.. no mood for eveything else... so if u see this pls don't bring up anything abt alevels

Scary Day

2007-03-02T10:33:00.000+08:00

Ahhhh.... release of results later at 2.30pm. I think i am going crazy.. I can't sit still. Can't help thinking what will happen if my results are poor and where am i going?? Help!!! Bless ME with good luck man

Stuff to do for next few days..

2007-03-01T11:56:00.000+08:00

Yesterday met up with vincent to check out some laptop prices at funan. Then we will compare it to the IT fair coming up on 11 march. I am such an IT geek lol.. Hmm my lousy mp3 player keeps on giving me problem... They never seems to get the thing fix for long.. Though the sound quality is good but low life span. My sis's mp3 player is Olympus too i bought it for her but doesn't give her any problems damn it. I am considering whether to get a new mp3 player at the IT fair. If i really do then i am getting this mp3 player of mine fixed and pass it to my brother since he doesn't have 1. Later i will be meeting up miss foo joshua n vincent for dinner. Yea dinner haven seen them for ages except vincent lol. Then i think tomorrow we are going to chee wei's house to get some hongbao haha. I just recovered from a sore throat but yesterday i was greedy n drank some really HOT soup and i think i scalded my throat... So here i am with a deep sexy voice.. Hope i get well soon... (lol i am wishing myself get well soon)....

sth to do for now..

2007-02-27T23:42:00.000+08:00

Slping soon... Finally manage to hoax my brother to bed before i did.. such a big baby even when he is in sec 1. Watched a few DvDs at home in the noon. I got it from JB. Pretty nice shows but just quite fed up that i asked for the sinking of japan and they gave me a show called the world sinks except japan. Kinda crappy just from the title. Haven watch it yet. Gonna watch it soon. Guess i must find myself something to do otherwise my mind is going crazy in thoughts. I guess i am thinking too much. I must seriously stop myself from that.

Angbao money!!

2007-02-26T11:26:00.000+08:00

Haha finally some happy news for me lotsa of angbao $$ for me haha though lesser than last year but still alot haha. Sadly i got nothing that i want to buy. I am currently happy with all the stuffs that i have. So much angbao $$ oso no use only put in the bank lol. Yesterday watched the soccer match of arsenal vs chelsea haiz the gunners lost 1-2 putting up the youth team. I read the papers and they said the first goal by chelsea was offside and there should have been a card for kicking in on baptista. Then terry got kicked in the head by accident it was awful. But no matter what the match was nice to watch but ended in fights. Haiz i wan to watch movies... Sum1 ask me out leh.. Dying at home liao..

Last Day of the Dog year

2007-02-17T23:18:00.000+08:00

Came back froma family dinner with my uncle from my dad side. On the way there i had a heated argument with my dad. Then when we got off the car he said i was being rude to him nowadays. Maybe i was. But he never admits to his own mistakes he will always try to argue out of his way and to make him seems he is always right. Then he said i never treated him like a father and is rude to him and ask me to remeber this day 17th of Feb 2007. I will remeber this day as he is being autocratic and so up to himself. I really felt like leaving the house at that point of time. Since i am leaving under him i have to listen to him. I treat him like a father and i care. That is why i point out his mistakes which i admit maybe harsh sometimes. But he is in the wrong. I guess thats where my younger brother's bad temper and attitude came from. My brother is just like him. Hopeless at times.

CNY tomorrow

2007-02-17T00:07:00.000+08:00

Just did some last minute packing of my room. During the packing there were some stuffs which reminded me... Though i keep telling myself to get over it and move on. Though i mentioned that i have straightened out my thoughts the scar is still there. Feels sore and sad about it. Haiz. hope i will not be saying all this again in the coming new year. I gotta move on. Dragged my feet already for so long. I gotta move on and pray it is gonna be better tomorrow.

Went for a dinner

2007-02-15T23:43:00.000+08:00

I just came back from a reunion dinner with my mum's side of family. The food was just normal not really nice. Our dinner was at jumbo seafood restaurant. Maybe because i go there quite often so i don't find it special or find it different to have dinner there. Finally i managed to talk to my sis and gave her some advice on handling relationship problems. How i can be of some help. Quite worrying to see her like that. Haiz... now then i realise she is quite like me she hides everything to herself and wears a mask to face every. However i guessed i finally make her speak out to feel better. Then who can i talk to....

Day of worries

2007-02-15T10:40:00.000+08:00

Finally managed to change my blog skin. Just now i purposely went to offer some help to my sister about changing the blogskin. Then i quickly took down her blog address and went to read her blog. It was freaking shocking!! I really want to help her out though we aren't that close. I want to offer her some advice regarding about her "methods" of handling relationship. But how do i go about telling her. She probably will not listen to me. Haiz.. hoope i can get to her and help her soon really worried..

Straightend it out i guess Finally

2007-02-14T23:08:00.000+08:00

Just after that blog i went to jog and i straightened out my thoughts gradually for once FINALLY I felt so much better after i vent everything out on my punching bag (my bed). I definitely felt better i guessed i should have done that long ago. I guess this is the only place where my thoughts will flow freely. It's gettin late going to sleep alrdy. Shall continue editing the blog tomorrow..